Random thought

Being intelligent isn't having all the knowledge, it's the desire to constantly learn, to find out the things that you don't know.

Monday 25 August 2014

Sorry I've been away.

I've been away at my sisters since my last post and had terrible internet. (Not that anybody is reading anyway ;) ) 

I've decided to buy a slow cooker so today will be my first venture with it! 

Lasagne :) so i'll see how it goes! 

X

Tuesday 12 August 2014

First challenge of the day

Well it's not too much of a challenge, but I received a text this morning 

"Your accident claim has now been signed off & you have been awarded £3209.56, for us to transfer it to you ASAP just fill out the form http://injuryaid4u.com" 

Now usually I would just ignore texts like these, but I did have an accident a couple of years ago and I stupidly told a company about it. That along with the website made me think "hold on a minute, I should check this out, just incase I'm going to miss out on £3000". 

So I googled the number that text me, and didn't find anything - like I wouldn't if they were a real person. I tried various forms of the number and didn't find anything. 

Seems quite promising. 

Then I googled the name from the website. Here I found lots of "Whois" websites giving information about the domain name. (As well as the actual website). There wasn't much information but it did give the date it was registered - 21st July 2014. 

Yeah, I don't think so. 

I also noticed 'previous domain' was something like "sixweekabs". Definitely not. 

In conclusion, it does prove good to check, it could have real! 

<3 
Penny x

Monday 11 August 2014

Why I'm starting from scratch

I thought that I would start by explaining why I'm starting from scratch.

Since my son was born 3 years ago, I've suffered with severe depression, verging on Bipolar Disorder. Due to this I've been a pretty shit mum by all accounts. Well, I've not been the person that I wanted to be.

I used to have nice skin, be skinny, wear make up and I actually got checked out on the street.

The depression ruined me and everything that I was. I only feel comfortable talking about it to an anonymous audience, as I have more or less pushed away all my friends.

I can't really be to blame though, there have been a lot of bad things that have happened in the last three years. And a lot of stressful events, which normal people wouldn't be able to cope with.

In the past three years -

  • I had a three day labour with my son, and was then left alone with him after not sleeping for 3 days with no help from the midwives in the hospital ward. 
  • Not knowing what I was doing, I was thrown into motherhood with next to no help and hindrance from my dad by winding us up when the baby was crying at 3am.  
  • My son was underweight and so brought into hospital, leading to police enquiries (because we were both in our teens), social services involvement, and a lot of stress.
  • Having to quickly move house as the social services said my parents house was too cluttered.
  • My partner's parents split up, with his mum moving out and leaving his dad with a house he couldn't afford and thousands of pounds of debt. 
  • Having to move into my partner's parent's house and being expected to keep it clean and look after the baby while being very depressed, and constant feelings of guilt as his dad and brother were a bit ocd, and if I didn't clear up baby's toys etc, I could see their discomfort.
  • Moving into our own flat, with everything we own and half of the things from his parent's house.
  • Clearing out their house as they got a court order from not paying the mortgage. 
  • An infestation of cockroaches was left in the flat by the owner, which got worse and worse and having that stress daily, especially when my son started crawling.
  • I developed a bit of alcohol abuse for a few months though thankfully it was over quite quickly. 
  • Moved back into my parent's house.
  • Found out I was pregnant again.
  • Packed up my parent's 3 bed house + loft and shed, with 35 years of clutter to pack up - moving and packing boxes and bundles of crap, in 24 hours just me and my partner - with me being in my first trimester of pregnancy. - Then driving 3 hours at midnight to the new house in a new county.
  • Unpacking a 6 bed house full of boxes with no organisation and things randomly put into each box.
  • Looking after my parent's who were both quite ill, with COPD and a heart condition. AND a toddler AND while being very pregnant.
  • Being very pregnant with a toddler.
  • Having a newborn and a toddler.
  • Planning a wedding.
  • Unfortunately in April, my best friend and mother passed away quite suddenly.
  • Started a new job two days after the death.
  • Having to deal with the funeral as my dad passed it all onto me, with having the house full of people doing things for my dad.
  • Leaving the job as it was too stressful for me at the time. 
  • Dealing with the feud between my dad and my half-brother.
  • My dad keep threatening to kick us out.
  • Being expected to keep a 6 bed house clean and unpacking boxes while having a toddler and a baby.

Some of these are still a daily battle, but I think that my tablets are finally at the right dosage as I've been feeling much better.

Part of the reason for me wanting to set up a blog was to help me keep motivated and document my experiences. 

So hopefully this is the start of my transformation from 'slummy lazy domestic disaster' to 'yummy active domestic goddess'.

Here's to the future!
<3
Penny x

Hello!

Hello all, just a little introduction to my blog.

Firstly, I am a "Google Mummy" (Not sure if the term is official - yet ;) ) Which by definition means that I am a mummy that googles EVERYTHING. From symptoms of illness to activities to do with the kids.


So I thought that maybe I would start a blog using the things I find and seeing what works for me and what doesn't.


I am also basically starting from scratch at being an active stay at home mum and at being a housewife!


So I plan to share tips on things I find to do with cleaning etc and mummy type things.


I'm young-ish and trying to be a "yummy mummy" so that will be things too. (I'm 22)


I have two devils angels, born August 11 and October 13, so right now they are almost 3 and 10 months.


Sorry I'm rubbish at introductions. I'll try and add some posts now retrospectively to give a better overlook.

<3

Penny x